Eck

I havent posted in a while, I have been pretty much standing still or just loosing a few pounds. This is my own fault, I have been pretty good but at the same time I have been fudging on some things, not horribly but enough to slow things down, but one thing is that I havent gone off the program so if there is any positive that's it. I had such good resistance the first and most important weeks but now some days I have moments where I just want food. I am not sure why I am in such a funk but it's hard.... I am having issues getting completely on board again. I have lost and I am happy with where I am but I still feel hidious, that is because of how I have been eating, it's just so expensive for the healthy food right now. Anyway that is where I am struggling and hopefully the next post will be alot better. Apparently I am not as strong as others.

Week 4. Lovin it.

So I dont know exactly how much I lost, but it was atleast 3lbs. I will have more results next week. This week I was a little scatter brained this week. Anyway I am feeling awesome about the constant loss. Until later this week. By the way I am in the 170's yay!

Week 4.

So I am not sure how much I have lost but I got on the scale last night and know I have lost, which is great, I was going for 6 lbs but lol I am pretty sure that is not going to be the case. Sunday I have a memorial to go to so I will not be writing that day. I will report my success on monday. Hope everyone has a good weekend.

 So I have to admit some days have been harder than others. This weekend presents a challenge. I am pretty much out of what I like so I will not be excited, my food comes on monday so its going to be rough until then. Yikes. Oh well, onward I go. I can feel my pants getting baggier and baggier just about daily. I am so excited. Anyway monday it is...

Week 3 Down and headed for great results for week 4....

So I was only down 1.8lbs for week 3 however I know exactly where I went wrong, I didn't stray far from the plan but I was adding some regular cheese to my salads and on my scrambled eggs. I tried the fat free but would rather have nothing, anyway I had it more than I should of but at least it didn't go worse. I have cut that out as well as the summer sausage beef stick that i was munching on, I tried to convince myself it wasn't that bad because I was taking out my lean when i had that. I have learned though that this will just delay me from getting to my goal and that is not going to happen. I am doing good I feel the inches coming off and it makes me feel so good about myself, people have been commenting, I wonder sometimes if they are just being nice, but either way I feel and know it so I am happy, plus I am more confident which is always nice. Anyway I am determined to lose as much this week as I can. I am going for close to 6 lbs which will put me at 20 lbs in one month. I wont get discouraged if it doesn't happen but its my goal. I cant wait I am almost in a 10. Anyway I will try to be more diligent with writing more often.

On another note, I cant wait to get my food Monday, I ordered everything I love so that I am sure to stay on track.... Yay....  I love eating brownies and peanut butter bars and loosing weight. I love medifast, thank you for giving me my confidence back.

Total down = 13.8 in 3 weeks.  On to 20 I go....

Week Two in the bag... Results...

This week was an emotional one with Bray being sick and me PMS'ing lol it was a rough one. Given all that I still lost 3lbs. Not great and not what I wanted but it comes with inches lost as well so I guess I am just fine with that. I am happy that it is down 3 but still wishing it was more but I am hoping that it was the pms lol. Anyway onwards to week 3. I am very excited about how my clothes are getting bigger. Well Valentines Day is tomorrow and I am doing just fine, without candy, without wine :( lol you know what I have been focusing on is that when things get tough I reach for food, I knew that but even now it is sometimes hard. It is amazing how America shoves crap down us. It is sooo expensive to eat good and that is not right. It is so much cheaper especially in this ecomony to eat crap food. I dont think that is right and it is taking its toll on me trying to get thru this weight loss. Anyway I will write more later. Chow friends.

Feeling Great.... Update from the past week

I am feeling so much better about myself and feel better in my clothes. I also have been doing great with the food, I am at that point you have to remind yourself to eat, and sometimes when you are not even hungry. This is amazing. I can't wait until weigh day to see what this week was like, I already know its not going to be as much, but that is natural but I am hoping that it is close. Anyway things have been crazy so I haven't written, not that I think anyone reads this:) lol It is nice to start feeling sexy again. I am currently in my 12's really good, and hope to soon be in 10's not that I have any but I suppose when my 12's get baggy I can assume that I would fit in a 10 lol. If anyone has any 10's they want to pass my way that would be greatly appreciated.

I will blog again on weigh in day.

happy Wednesday (almost) everyone.

Weigh In Time..... Better than I could of imagined, SO HAPPY

Okay so I have been nervous that even though I have been feeling results that for some reason I would not see them on the scale. Boy was I wrong. I got to the gym. went pee :) lol then stripped down and got on the scale, i looked up so i didnt watch until it beeped, then I looked down and it was 9.4 that's right down 9.4 lbs that brings me to 185.9. That is one week!

I have to say I am very thankful, it has been a rough week some points easier than others but still rough. I honestly dont know how I would of kept going had I not seen results on the scale.

i am super excited, onward I go, week 2 bring it on. Loving it. Feeling better already, my clothes keep getting smaller and smaller, however, lol Not that I have a small butt, but I have other places I wish it would come off first, I may not have any butt after this LOL, oh well I will accept that for the results.

Thanks for all my supporters.

~FABULOUS~

Day 7 and 8! Feb 4th and 5th

Day 7-  It went well Bray has been sick so it was kind of a hectic day, but I have done well managing meals on the go. So convinient as well.

Day 8- This was a rough day. Bray was sick and was up most the night before caughing, poor baby. So when we got up I was dragging. I had a shake around 8:45 which was later than usual so it makes the rest of the day trying to make sure I got in all my meals. I have been at my parents with Bray because he is very sick and had a doc apt on friday and she wanted us to watch him so I wanted to stay close. My parents had pizza for dinner, this was my biggest struggle so far. I LOVE PIZZA, I text a few people and told them I wanted pizza, the smell was amazing... yummy, I stayed strong and I am very proud that I did, but let me say it again, Medifast is not for the Weak Willed.... Well I have been setting a goal for myself of atleast 8lbs down at weigh in... .Please see next blog for the weigh in.....

Day 6 ~ Feb 3 No Problem!

So today was a really good day, today it was absolutely no problem I actually had no issue going every three hours. I felt empowered today knowing this. Also there was a Chili cook off at work and as soon as you walked in you could smell it. YUMM, but I just enjoyed the smell and went about my business. I found by lunch time, I wasnt really hungry so I just made a shake and drank it because I wanted to be sure to stick with it but it just get's easier and easier, seems like morning time is the hardest but by night time its smooth sailing. Bray is sick again so after work tomorrow I will be headed to my parents, which means I will be weighin in on sunday instead of saturday. I have to say smells are hard to ignore:) lol but I am rockin it and sticking with this because I have my goal in mind and I have to concentrate on that. Anyway will post day 7 and 8 on sunday, along with my updated weight and the amount I lost the first week:)

Day 5~ Feb 2, Groundhog Day

Okay so today there were two really hard moments:) But I made it with flying colors:)

 Today I was in a CPR/First Aid Training at work and i was smart enough to figure out when I needed to get my next meal. The hard part was lunch time, they had ordered sandwiches, yummy, croissant sandwiches, but I took my meal and gave it to someone else, went to my desk got my medifast meal and took it back and ate it while I watched everyone eat their yummy sandwiches, that was a hard moment, until I reminded myself of my goal and how great it was going to be. So that moment passed, the next moment was when I picked up Bray from my parents. Bray had to go potty and there was a McDonald's right there so we went in to use the bathroom, well Gramma and Grampa went in to get dinner. So we used the bathroom and Bray was hungry, well I got him a happy meal, mind you I usually keep him eating healthier, but I am not going to go overboard and say he can never have a happy meal. We sat down with my parents for a few minutes and sitting there, looking at that cheeseburger, smelling those french fries, and I don't even care for french fries, lol I was finding myself telling myself, it is worth it, it is worth it. And that moment too passed. I did really good today, usually evening is the easiest. Tonight I cooked up some hamburger and tried to put it in my salad, not what I was hoping for, I couldn't gag it down so I grabbed two eggs and scrambled them and it was so good. Not sure if that was the best but I knew I couldn't skip it. Anyway this weekend, I am really going to have to start looking for some recipes.

 Okay enough of the heavy, on the bright side, I can feel my pants getting bigger and things getting smaller, I have more energy and the hunger has passed mostly, I still have my moments but they are better. I sat down to write this and I almost wrote day 4 and realized it was day 5, soooo excited that it has passed that fast. I am thrilled that things are going well, I am still nervous about weigh in day, I am really hoping I am not let down.

So to day 5 thank you and hello day 6. I really need some ideas if anyone wants to tell me some for my lean and greens, its hard because I am somewhat picky also.

Day 4 ~ Feb. 1, Awesome.

Today the hunger has subsided even more. It was a lot easier to get thru the day today, I still had a weak moment and craved chili :) lol I am going to have to buy some Medifast Chili. Anyway I didn't act on the craving. I feel great about sticking with this, I will say one thing, Medifast is not for the Weak Willed... Man it tests you for sure. Today was a great day. I went online this afternoon and looked at swim suites, I am so excited to be able to wear one this summer. I plan to look Bad Ass in it :) I have changed my Blog name to a more appropriate title for me. I can't wait for my clothes to start getting baggy and to start wearing smaller clothes. I feel so much better tho, I no longer feel bloated or feel overly full, I feel great. I am trying to be patient until my weigh in on Saturday but I am excited as well as terrified, I have put a certain number in my head that I want to lose the first week I know against better judgement and against Trish's advice, but I didn't purposely set the number but it happened and I just am excited.

 Anyway I feel better every day and I can't wait for day 5:)

Day 3 ~ January 31st.

Day 3, I feel awesome, today went wayyyy better, still had a few rough patches when I smelled something really good, or when we got home and I thought chili or top roman sounded good, lol. I am sure this will pass. Today I feel so empowered getting thru the second and third day. I feel great, I have more energy, I was a little tired today but who knows what that is from. I am sooo excited to see what the results will be on saturday when I weigh myself:) I know this sounds strange and unless you have started this program you will think i am crazy, but I am on day 3 and I am feeling so much better. I already feel sexier just not eating crap food. I love what this is doing for me. Can't wait. Bring on day 4...

Day One and Two, January 29-30th! Roughness

Day one. January 29th.

  So I started the day having this profound excitement. This was an interesting day, it was crazy tho, I got up at 8:30 and started cleaning the kitchen after I got Bray breakfast, I should have gotten a shake and drank it while I worked but I didn't and ended up not getting one until 10:30ish, this wasn't too bad, however it made it interesting trying to fit the rest of days food in. The first day went great until I took my antibiotic that I am taking for my ear infection, this antibiotic sucks, I get super nauseas etc, this is my second round of this to try and get rid of my ear infection, so I took it after dinner and got majorly nauseas and still had to eat 2 of meals. I had a shake which was good, but then I had a brownie and it was sooo hard to eat because I felt sooo sick, just looking at it made me want to get sick. The brownies are great but the antibiotic makes me really ill, but I am going to have to stick it out the next few days. After sleeping I woke up feeling better.

Day two- January 30th.

 This was a better day I ate on time and decided that I was going to take the antibiotic at the end of the day right before bed, so if I get nauseas hopefully I will be asleep and not know I am nauseas. Anyway Day two... I was HUNGRY lol I am still in the midst of trying to figure out my routine and what is best for me to hold me over. I feel so empowered though tonight after sticking it out, I can only believe that it will get easier and it will be so worth it. I forgot to mention over the last few days I have missed bad food like crazy lol, this morning was rough I woke up and smelled breakfast cooking that I wouldn't be partaking of. I have made it thru the day and feeling great now. I am so excited about tomorrow, I have planned my meals and believe that the choices I made for the day will hold me over and keep me satisfied. I want to let Trish know how much I appreciate the support and advice today, I know I can do this and I am going to kick butt. And for my other ladies that are supporting me, I love you all. Thanks for the support, I am happy to see results, below I have posted my stats and included a few pics, yikes I cant believe I am posting them but I am so focused on the outcome and how much healthier and hopefully slimmer I will be....

Weight- 195

Arm -          15 1/2
Bust -         40
Waist-        42
Leg-           25

I know, this is horrible... Yucky pics but I can't wait to post the result pics...

Tomorrow is the big day!!!!!

I am sooooooo excited, I got my food today, the first week that I got free with my order is good food that I will like, I was sooo happy that was a bonus. I am so excited even tonight I feel like I have more energy already:)

 I am so thankful for this great change, I have been so excited. It has been hard to wait for the food but the waiting is over.... I will post pictures and stats tomorrow, maybe sunday because I will be in Estacada tomorrow afternoon and my parents dont have internet, but I will record my first day and then post on sunday. Thank you for all that have supported me in this decision, I can't wait to see the results from week one. Here we go....

 To all my friends, any encouragement during this road would be appreciated.

On my way to a Healthier sexier MILF, and my WHOLE NEW WORLD.

Food scheduled for Friday! :)

My food is in transit. It is scheduled to be delivered on friday.... I can't wait. i am soooo excited.

Stay tuned

Ordered the food:)

My first order was placed today!!!!! I am so excited, I can't wait. It's hard to be ready to start but have to wait to get the food that is being shipped. Anyway I am hoping to start Jan 31 or Feb 1 so I will post again.

Ordering my food on Friday! YAY

I am so excited... It took alot of shifting and rearranging a few things in my budget, but I am very happy to report that friday I will be ordering my first month of medifast. Yummy I cant wait I love the food and the one day I have tried I felt amazing, more energy and better not bloated etc. So after Friday I will post the day I think I will be starting. I think I may just say Feb 1. Not sure cause I have to wait for the food to arrive, but that seems like a good day. Either way I will still be able to have a piece of Birthday cake which is wonderful, I love my Moms cake and I didnt wana have to tell her I didnt want any lol. So I get my cake and eat it to lol, isnt it something like that.

Anyway my Bray I am still worried about he has been dealing with this virus, hard on him, he threw up last tuesday, friday, saturday, sunday and monday. today when i picked him up from gramma and grampa i thought he was going to get sick again, but I called the doc and she said that this could just be the virus. It better be or I am going to open a can of whoopy. lol

Anyway my outlook on this year is great, I am going to be gorgous and out of debt by summer. Loving it. I feel like I can breath for the first time in a few years.

Now if only... Lol just kidding. I am very happy. Loving my family.

Refoccused.

Okay so I have refoccused my frustration. I am just going to work my ass off to get the money I need to purchase my first month. I really wish I could get started sooner, but I will breath and deal with it as it comes. Thanks for all the support from everyone during my mood today. I really enjoyed doing my first trial day so I am extatic to get started for good.Thanks Trish for letting me see that I am going to love this.  Anyway Kristine thanks for the long distance support let's kick butt girl, Love ya. Maybe I will be able to afford a plane ticket when I loose weight, lol do they sell the seats by weight? too bad... lol

I will blog again soon and share my progress of the order. First obsitcal is to get the food.....

Damn luck

Well today was going well. I like the food and I was prepared to completely commit, and was hoping that it would work out to where I would get more food without having to miss days, but not happening, half of me just is so mad that i just wana say f'it. Let me tell you McDonalds sounds great right now, remember stress eater.... The other half just wants to curl up and cry I am so frustrated.. Damn this luck. I am beyond frustrated, the only thing stopping me from doing this is money, damn money. I hate you money. you are evil..... I may say f'it and go to McDonalds and drown my sorrows.

Tomorrow's the big day!

I am super excited I am starting medifast tomorrow. I can't even describe how happy I am having made this decisionl, I can't wait to start living this new life, this healthier life. I can't wait to not feel bloated, to stop eating so much, to have more energy. I am so excited to feel myself shrinking, I am excited about getting the happy me back, when you are not happy with yourself it affects the rest of you. I am looking forward to stop stress eating. I am looking forward to taking control of my life. I will post how the first day went tomorrow night.

Exciting Decision

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